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____ confused.

so yup, sunday. haven't blog for long time.. grounded plus i'm so stressed from school. the start of the academic week is on tuesday already. so harsh. dasayawit plus math cheering and words on fire for english. waaah. everything's comin' down on me all at once. but good thing there's the academic week, so there's a gap in studying. students like me don't really like to study  forever. hahahaha.=)

so yup, i'm confused again. torn in between. i'm not sure who's supposed to love. i feel guilty again for hurting someone. i know either way, one's going to be hurt. so yeah whatever, i shall wait for God's plan nalang.

anyway, Francis is leaving. i'm going to miss my soulmate. though yeah, he told me they're not sure yet but if he leaves, i'm going to miss him. he's like my backmate and seatmate this third year. he really made me smile a lot. and i really thank God for letting him be someone i know.

okaay enough. that's dramatic.

so i don't really know what to do with my life now. do i love him or him? I'M HELL CONFUSED.

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thank you God.

well, i have no one to share my insights about my life right now. since i missed blogging, i'd love to post it here and share how thankful i am that God gave me this life.

well, i've already experienced a lot of relationships with no commitment. well, i guess God just wanted it that way. i've been happy with them but still, we weren't for each other. but i still thank God for bringing them into my life because those people made me realize a lot of things about life. well, if you really know me, i'm serious when it comes to that though i still look immature and act immature. i've been careful in taking care of my own heart as well as others. i'm afraid to hurt other people, but sometimes, i end up hurting them. because that's just the way it is. pain can make us realize things, if pain won't attack us, the tendency is we don't learn anything. i've also had regrets about my past life, but still, life still teaches me to move on and forget them. through all the pain God gave me, he still helped me overcome all of this.

Most people say that they cut their self to take away the pain from having their heart broken or from being hurt, I've never cut my self but I think that cutting yourself doesnt take away the other pain it just makes you focus on the cut. But the pain from being broken hearted or what ever is still there even though your not focused on it at the moment you cut yourself it comes back eventually!

now, i am already happy with my life. though yeah, i still want a lot of things pero mga tipong luho ko nalang yun sa buhay. my life is already complete and i can't ask anything more. i have the perfect set of family whom i know is always there for me. i have my parents who teaches me a lot of things about life. they also guide me in a lot of things. they help me distinguish the right from wrong. they help me make my life better. though sometimes, i get scolded by them, i understand why they do those things to me. their rants about me help me realize my mistakes. learning from them even makes my self feel good. i also have my brother and sister who makes me laugh and help me forget about my problems in life. even though they're still kids, they also make me realize a lot of things. i'm so thankful God gave me to them. I can say I also have the perfect set of friends who makes me feel better everytime something bad happens to me. Valasuvas and Weewatz. you guys are the best! i just hope you feel how thankful I am to have you here in my life.

Vv, i know we don't see each other that much anymore but i hope you still feel how important you guys are to me. we we're friends already back to our freshmen year and it even rocks knowing that we're getting stronger. too bad i can't spend my senior year with you. kung kelan kompleto na tayo. i promise to keep in touch with you guys. i love you so much.

Weewatz, thank you guys for accepting me and letting me feel welcome. akala ko talaga dati magiging loser ako. but thanks to you guys, you made me not. hahaha! =) ayun, thanks for the memories. you guys make my day in school less suck. love you so much.

so that, what? kind of emotional ba? i just really feel like saying what i feel now. i really thank God for a lot of things. I also thank him for completing my life. he's casper. hahaha. i love him already and praying that things would work fine for us.

Casper, thanks for making me happy. you completed my life and i hope things would be fine for us. i really thank God for knowing you. I love you casper!

so that's it guys, i have to go already. thanks for reding. lovelove =)

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my heart is crushed

so this is an awesome day. guess what people, it's the first time i ate BALUT. this is so unbelievable man. ahaha and i'm proud. wahahahaha. shocks, i still have hangover. well anyways, i just made a poem a while ago during chemistry time. actually poems! wahaha. just read it.. it shows how i feel.

As I listen to voices
All I hear is you
Eventhough you're far away,
All I wanna be is with you
Though my worlds is senseless,
Without you is I something I can't do
All the things I have now,
The one lacking is you
As I listen to songs,
Every line leads back to you
A lot of things make my day,
Jumping to conclusions don't make me want to stay
I just wish you're beside me,
Making a way just to be happy

Actually, there's one pa. but i'm too lazy to post it. next time nalang..

Whoot. Fridaaaaaaaaaay na. Ohyeah.

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all good.

bwahaha. this day was awesome. i swear.. from morning until afternoon. i was happy really! =)

morning, i was with him. yup, and it was all paulina's fauuuuuuult. hahaha but because of my pashy effect, i didn't talk to him that much. i was tooooooo shy. bwahaha. so yun, it made my day good though.

after that, batch meeting at the fba auditorium. the batch meeting was successfull though. they made this batch reformation organization. sana effective naman. though yup, i'm kind of pasaway din but i'll really try my best to get rid of those violations. [ ohno, goodbye eyeliners ]

hahahahaha =) what else? english time. grabe super topak. hahahaha ms jessica was our teacher again and she told us to have a nametag. since she doesn't know me yet, i wrote on my nametag "haley" wahaha. then when i was about to recite, she called me that. wahaha then francis' name was PANCHITO! wahaha nakakatopak talaga. hahaha then yun..

after break, its our chemistry time but unfortunately ms. mariliz is absent again. i do miss her though. i had news that she her heart was clogged. i'm just praying for her. she's a nice teacher though. so yun, i just wish that she'll feel better soon. pero nung chemistry time, i was playing concentration with my other classmates. grabe, super punong puno na ko ng powder sa face kasi pag nagkamali ka tatapunan ka ng powder sa face. wahaha pero it was fun.. realllllllllly =) so yun.. i just like this day so much so i decided to blog. i was only dropping by.